its the bengkel learning!!

huhu..in my opinion this was the most interesting part of learning in my course..huhu ^^...actualy,we had to wake up abit early than others usual day when its time for bengkel class because we must arrived infront of the bengkel at 7.45 a.m. sharp on the spot..huhu..then after gathered in front of there n que up in a row(usualy our gas welding lec,che zul will said beratur2 apa tunggu lagi bratur lah with his kelantanese essence language..sampai aku pun terhafal ayat neh..huhu xD),then we had to do some excercise..like streaching our muscle n lastly the famous star jump(aku lwak teringat mat siam wat lompat bintang x pnh nya btul,la kot bru boleh gagah sket2..ha3 xD)..huhu.."kita akan melakukan lompat bintang sebanyak 15 kali dlm kiraan 1,2,3,1..senaman mula"..the typical phase that we use every week before the star jump started..ha3 xD,usualy we had 2 do the star jump repeadly if its not done simultaneosly together..(so tired maa~...huhu xD)...I thought mayb the purpose of this activities is to prevent from muscle cram and sleepyness(because the lec know we usualy stay up until late at night..huhu).. that can be harmful 2 us when we facing heavy mechine that may lead 2 unwanted accident..hurm..after that we will be divided into 4 groups..the arc and gas welding,the milling mechine(mesin larik),n gegas groups..4 the first week I'm in the milling mechine group(yes2,yg ne aku paling suka dr yg lain2 2 sbub best n x boring..huhu xD)...

The study begin :)

huhu..this what I'm waiting for..but actualy at first we did'nt study much because all the lecture still in be arrenged..but just a few la,the others lec just chatting2(cam mempekenalkan diri la)...then on the second week this when the study begin..huhu..at first I had En. Raman class(we usualy call him Pak raman)..huhu..he's the one who was happy go lucky type lec..he always making joke n teasing others 3 girl in my class..ha3 xD..sometimes I'll also been his target..ha3 xD..but he always punished people to do something interesting(die denda org suh smayang subuh seminggu kat pusat islam berjemaah)..thats mean that person had to wake up early in da morning because that time solat subuh is around 5.30 a.m if im not mistaken..huhu xD..so the person had 2 wake up more early because he had 2 take bath before going there..huhu..Pak Raman did had problem to check if the people realy came or not because he's the one who frequently became tok bilal(tukang azan) at the mosque for subuh,magrib and isyak prayer..so the people that been punished cannot try 2 skip or escape themselves..huhu..he's been to japan before for study..n he can speak well in japanese language..he always tell a story about his experience in japan..(waa~..made me so jelous!!.huhu xD)...he always said if we put enough effort in study we also can..but now he's not became my lec anymore because he had successful 2 further his study to germany in the level of Phd..(wah2 dia neh,blajaq cakap jerman pulak..best gler ah anak2 dia pun ikut gak..huhu xD)..but interesting things happened,he's been replaced by the gorgeus Miss Koa..huhu xD

Orentation week!!

Yeah..its the orentation week..huh!!..a week full of bored activities and tiredness!!...waa~..such a nightmare!!that's all that I could remember..I never thought that its could be this hard because I never been 2 any orentation day...its not like its was hard as soldier training but the time scedule is very2 packed!!...I just sleep 4 about 4 to 3 hour per day in that's full week!!..wuwu...every day we had to wake up early about 5 a.m because we had to que up to use the bathroom to take the morning shower!!..at first Its may be odd 2 me because I'm not from boarding school..huhu,but now its became my daily rutine..huhu ^^...then at 5.30 a.m we had a road call to check if all people were enough n none of we were miss n try 2 skip..huhu..and if somebody late,they will be punished..huhu..I had once..huhu..luckily just had to do a few push up that's not a big problem 4 me..huhu :P..but sometimes the others people had 2 sang a song like that..ha3 xD..luckily I havent had once..huhu..then we all would walk together in line to the pusat islam(mosque) to pray solat subuh berjemaah(ne satu2 nya activiti yg aku sokong 100% dan bagus la sbub aku tawu..sesetengah dari dak2 neh bknye jage smayang pun,jemaah jauh sekali la..jadi bgus la jgak kot2 depa insaf n terbuka hati nk berubah ka..huhu ^^)..after had finished the pray we had a kuliah subuh(baguih gak..aku pun dah lama x dqaq kuliah subuh..dok bangun pun dah lewat dah,slalu kul 6.45 ke 7 bru nk smayang..ish2..insaf sket aku dok dqaq kuliah 2)..huhu..actualy the All the kuliah on this orentation week is mainly about the priority of solat to us(like its rukun islam yg ke-2 tu,name pun rukun islam kan..klo x buat 2 layak ke kite gelar diri kite ne orang islam???..hurm..sme2 fikirkan lah,lae satu solat yang sempurna dapat mencegah diri kita daripada melakukan kemungkaran,pas 2 solat ne suruhan Allah,berani ke kite kufur n lawan suruhan pencipta kita??..men bola,men game,dok merapu sampai berejam2 boleh plak,x msj awek sari x bleh duduk tpi ble tang nk solat lupa,nak habiskan masa untuk menunaikan kewajipan kita sebagai hamba Allah lebih kurang 5 minit setiap waktu pun x boleh ke??..susa sgt ke lepas semua rahmat yg Allah beri utk kita,sihat,bleh sambung blaja,cukup makan minum??..)...its some of the good contence that I pick along All the kuliah..(its not like I'm perfect n were good enough tapi kita kan sama2 bleh amik iktibar dan pengajaran daripadanya dan boleh cuba berubah dan memperbaiki diri kearah kebaikan dari hari ke hari??..sbub 2 la sngaja aku selitkan kat sini sket,aku pun nk gak tgok membe2 aku berubah,bleh gak pahala kat aku)..huhu ^^...then after that we had breakfest..then ground activity on the evening n on the night we had some ceramah...that activities goes aroud every day in that week..huhu

Dunia Baruku!!..huhu ^_^

sejuk je mata memandang kan?


lawa un view dari dewan aku..huhu

Yeah at last I'm step my foot in IPT,altough I'm just in the second intake but its ok 4 me cause I got the courses that I wanted..hurm..Alhamdulillah..thx 2 Allah..huhu..I'm went there 2 registered at 12/1/09/ in da morning..huhu..the at scedule that were given I must registered at 8 am..so I wake up early in da moning about 5 a.m( wah smangat bangun awal..ha3 xD) to check all the doc that were needed 4 the registration so that nothing miss or left at home..huhu..then after smayang subuh,breakfast etc. we depart at 7.am...actualy the place is not so far from my home its just about 20~30 minute by car,so it wont be a problem 4 me if I want 2 go back home in the weekend..huhu xD..after about 25 minute we arrived,its so chill n windy at there..mayb because the place situated on hills place..I looked at the registering place already full by crowded of people including their parent..I guest mayb they come from other state n stay at the student hotel cause they arrived early than me..huhu..after bring all my things then I registered..waa~ pity on me cause nearly all the people in my course were man except the other's 3 girl registered on that day..(bru jek niat nk mengusha awek trus x kesampaian..wkakaka xD)..after the being registered,its time 2 check in at my room,I looked around,the first Impression is I tought this place look very big that could made me lost(but after 2 days I realise that I was wrong)..lol ^^..the first I felt dizzy la looked at the pathway because all seems same 2 me..huhu..but after been guide by fasilitator I arrived succesfully without any harm..ha3 xD..then after I open the door that time was the the time when I saw syafiq(we used 2 called him mat siam..huhu xD)....that was my roomate..my best buddy la..huhu ^^..he was taller n bigger than me( tpi bkn gemuk la..huhu)..then our parents had a chat,I heard that he was kedahan people,that was great because usualy kedah and perlis people were easily be friends with(mayb cause we had the same enviroment kot)..huhu..at first we did'nt talk to much la cause we didn't now each others very well..then after knowing him,luckily he also the gila2 type like me,so we can get along very well la..ha3 xD

message 2 all who try 2 MOVE ON!!!

"FORGET HER" forget her name, forget her face,her smile,her warm embrance... forget the love that you once knew... REMEMBER, SHE HAS SOMEONE NEW... forget her when her played your song... REMEMBER WHEN YOU CRIED ALL NITE LONG... forget how close you once were... REMEMBER, SHE HAS CHOSEN HIM... forget how you memorized her walk... forget the way she used to talk... forget the things she used to say... REMEMBER, SHE HAS GONE AWAY... forget her laugh, forget her grim... forget the way she held you tight... REMEMBER, SHE'S WITH HIM TONIGHT... forget the time that went so fast... forget the love that moved, its past... forget she said she's leave you never... REMEMBER!! SHE HAS GONE FOREVER...stop to pLay with fire cause there will always be a fire back,always..Remember that SHE WHO CHOOSE THIS WAY!!...oNce u loose it, u'll regret it Forever!!!..In life,love can came n go,we smile 4 it,laugh 4 it n sometimes cry 4 it,hurm..so painful..some started with friendship,n some just realised when its almose gone....sometimes just because 2 be appraciated,we do so many things without thinking altough some of them were ridiculous n sometime were silly...hurm...but some of us finally realised that our life is not a fairytail,n we need 2 start it over,just 4 one dream,its not mean we had 2 sacrifice our whole life,altought when our heart broken badly facing the reality,dont let its fall down,slowly gain courage n stand on our own feet n convince ourselves that we were walking in real world..eventought how much u know someone,u still cant judge n read their action or predic what's on their mind..In life,we had 2 learn 2 let go after we had try our best n put full effort on it because the more u wait,the more time u waste..start with heart,dream n fantasy,even how much strong our principe can be shaking cause we just a human,but if u felt that feeling just addmit it n said it before we loose n regret it..but as a human...only god knows what gona happen next in our life journey..but I know how the story begin,so its up 2 us 2 decide 2 choose weither 2 win or 2 loose,but hey..I'll choose 2 win!!!...^_^

SHE MAKE THE DECISION!!

Finally she had made her mind,but unluckily the guy isn't me....actualy it would be a lie if I said I dont felt anything,mayb abit frustrated..wuwu~ T_T...but its ok,cause this time its not as hard 2 take as the past day cause I had redha with the fate...I respect ur decision n mayb you wasnt 4 me..sob2 :((..cause I belive in effort n doa comes first before fate...n I had put my full effort on it..but it's seems..hurm..then now I leave it 2 fate...actualy I dident know well that guy...mayb he got the things that she had dream about that she could'nt find in me...yea..plus also the advantage cause he's closer 2 her(yela ari2 dorg jumpa..aku neh dok jauh)..so the probability that she will be closer 2 him will be higher cause there will be place 4 her 2 lean on cause I can't be there 4 her..waa~ T_T...but the part tenacious and tread cautiosly..that part can be questionable cause if honestly I ask her between me and that guy who's she knows better??..hurm..sometimes I envy 2 that guy cause it seems that he dosen't had 2 put alot of effort 2 get her as I do..yea, mayb one day she will realised how much lost by putting me aside,a guy that could be patient for her,could take all the pressure,putting others girl aside,willing 2 do many things 4 her altought I never felt been appreciated,n never being her priority!!, n I bet u could'nt find easily a guy as good as me in ur entire life!!!!... but ahh!!!..nothings with this things matter's anymore..she had made her choice n her path cause we are what we choose..n now so do I..I must make a choice...n this time I choose 2 to turn 2 the other way,mayb now is the time 4 me 2 find a girl that would appreciate n giving me all her attention n priority..I just realised all this things when I read my old friends blogs...he's full of ambitions that make me realised that I dont want 2 be leaved behind..someday I will be somebody..n I'm willing 2 work hard 4 it..4 my future next 3 years plan is,I will assure that I could be choosen 4 intake 4 degree preparation engeneering student 2 japan!!mayb that sound abit silly but I will prove it!!not just by word..but by action!!..that's mean extra,extra n extra nonstop effort n work hard!!...I waste 2 much time in my past that make me regret n sometimes felt a pang of guilty to my parents to shattered their hope n 2 be differ from my others sister's that had succesful in their educations..but I'll always belive that I could done better over both of them If I put enough attention n effort in learning..this is time n chance 4 me 2 fulfil back my dream that were not reachable during my spm altought some of my dream now cannot be reachable like my engraved dream 2 be with her...hurm..but now I hope she happy with her choice,never will hold grudge agains anyone n no negative thinking neither offence,u still my friends..but I will prove 2 my selves n 2 her that I were way,way n way superbly better!!..we see which side gona gain more loses,either my side or her side!!!..just taste my courage!!..n let the time shows it!!!..I still remembered that time when I dident get any offer 2 futher my study cause I dont want 2 change my application course,I still eager 2 apply 4 mechanical engineering 4 all my application altough my spm result were not good enought..,than my mother heard there were many empty place in unimap,then she bring me 2 the intake department,at first I felt shy..but 4 future I put those aside,then go there with my mother,then the recepcionist said the application were already closed..damm,I still remembered her sorrow face of her shattered hope,I cant stand 2 saw her face like that,that all I can give 2 her??..4 all her care 4 me all 18 year,n 9 month she pregnant me(dia jugak sanggup tebal muka p tanya reception 2..wlaupun aku sniri pun sgan)altought she never had 2 do like that 2 my others sister that get many offer 2 study 2 overseas..damm..I felt superbly guilty..I cannot describe my feeling that time,its like mix of guilty,sad n arghh!!!..that time,right on the spot I had made promise 2 my selves,I said 2 my selves next in my entire life I will put all my effort that I could in my study,I gona show my true potential!!..I gona pay back cash all the tears that she had drops with her tear's of hapiness n 2 be proud of me!!!!...japan wait,here I gO!!!!!!!

one tree hills - Halo..hurm..I wonder were this song more suits the story of me or of her??

I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I'll give you everything I have, the good, the bad,
Why do you put me on a pedestal??
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there,

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so,
You wouldn't say so, if you were me,
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you,

I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try,
So don't be blinded,

See me as I really am,
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
So pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there,

Why you think that you know me,
But in your eyes,
I am something above you,
It's only in your mind,
Only in your mind,
I wear a,
I wear a,
I wear a halo....

last day on F6!!

Tringat kenangan time aku terpaksa membotakan rambut utk berada dlm form 6..ha3 xD

last friday..It was last day I'm on school...actualy I had stopped going 4 F6 about a month kot..then my physics teacher...(ha3 I had already forgotten his name)..had call me cause qurios why I'm gone 4 so long...actualy I had stop going 2 school because I had recieve an offer 4 mechanical engeneering course...wee~~...at last my dream came true...Alhamdulillah..thank 2 Allah..had u Imagine that I want 2 repeat my spm just because want 2 furfill my dream 2 become a mechanical engeneer??...now I get the chance so I don't had 2 worry about the spm or stpm(pecah pala study oi!!)...huhu xD...back 2 the topic..actualy I went there just 2 take surat akuan pelajar n want 2 said 2 my teacher that I want 2 quit my schooling(yeah at last!!) ..ha3 xD...that surat akuan pelajar actualy used 2 lower the kompaun that I had 2 pay cause I just lost my ic..waa~~ :((...If not I would had 2 pay 4 about rm100++..with that letter(plus with wat muka kesian..wkakak xD)..the kompaun had been lower 2 rm30 only..wee~~...thank god cause I also had 2 pay compaun 4 loosing licence n road tax 2..sob2..(lari bajet!!!)...waa~~...haiya..I dont know that there were so many process 2 get all that things..haih..so tired!!..had 2 go 2 jpj la,pjabat polis la,pendaftaran la..etc..(bayangkan habeh rm 5 minyak mto aku ulang alik wat sume 2)..that amount of fuel by my motocycle can go about for 40km to 50km..can u imagine how tired am I riding that distance in fasting month on the hot day??..(asa cam nk pengsan)..ha3 xD...

Im in dilemma!!

warghhh....what a stressful night..damm..I just know syamin just recieve a call from unimap that he had sucessful 2 further study at unimap...n he accept it..damm that guy..on the past day he keept asked me 2 reject any offer n stay 4 form 6...he said its had good prospec la(some sored like that la) bla..bla this...bla..bla that..fuk..now he gona leaved me alone with all the chinese man...damm..I would be "lelaki melayu terakhir" standing in science stream class in that school...ha3 xDD..haih..Its not a big deal 4 me 2 be the only malay altought it may be abit bored caused I always talking crap with him(mrapu2 dok kutuk org cause the other chinese don't know how 2 mrapu..ha3 xDD)...but its about the personal tution..firstly the fee 2 the tution 4 sure must be high cause I'm just singgle person compared before..n i would feel segan la if just alone in the tution...moreover without study partner the study would become more hard..my mother opinion just 2 ask me 2 wait 4 the january intake,wait 4 the appael 4 polytecnic or pre diploma at uitm..but I would rather wait 4 my repeat spm result..it would be more better altought I would be late 4 one year from my others friends cause I would reach my dream 2 be a mechanical engineer..huhu xDD

Its euro 2008!!

hey there...ha3...its been long time since my last post...so I decided 2 write abit tonight..huhu...hurm..what a usual night...nothing 2 do..moreover 2 night i'm not in da mood 2 study...but luckily the best part about tonight I can watch euro 2008 cause tomorow is holiday..ha3..its not about I can or can't stay up 2 da morning,but in case if its a school day,I'll will be sleeping in da class..ha3..If that happen I could not concentrate with the teacher's lesson..what a waste cause i will be left behind cause there were so many topic 2 cover..so every second count..huhu xDD.. wee~..tonight match will b turki vs corotia...ha3..i guest I like them both..but without present of many turki star n lead keepers...i guest the luck will b on corotia side..huhu..actualy who ever win is not a deal cause i support them both...huhu